2010's Goals

I've made many resolutions for this year: it felt to accomplish a few of the ones I set out last year so why not try it again? A major part of my resolution is to do it myself. I'm not one of those girls that can do her eyebrows, make-up & hair like its nothing. I struggle. Seriously, lol. Soo. Working out my monthly budget, I discovered (well not really) that I spend a ton on things that could be done at home. Plus, why depend on someone else (a major pet peeve) when you can do it yourself, right? So, I'll post my progress roughly every 2 weeks. The first 2 weeks of 2010 have been great goal wise, but I'm already starting to slack (gym-life is HARD). Sharing my goals should help me stay on track & force me to be accountable, right? Right. My goals were inspired by me (duh) but the public announcement inspiration came from none-other than Those Girls' "Journey To".... Surprised? You shouldn't be.

Now: here's a list of goals/things I need to accomplish in 2010:

- Do It Myself (aka the DIM Imperative): Hair! My locs are growing a little faster than I expected... & as much as I love the spa-like feeling of getting my hair done, there are 10 idle fingers that could be washing & retwisting my own strands. Hmph.

- 200 posts on my blog =): that means actively searching for new & interesting things to post. I'd like to take pride in this blog at some point. The layout is also a hot mess.. I haven't done the html thing since myblackplanet& Tdot Wire days.... Definitely need a refresher course on what's been happening since the advent of facebook.com removed the need to make everything purple *teehee: i wont do that here*.

- {Personal}To be more open: not a loud mouth spewing my business everywhere, but more perceptive, not necessarily trusting..oo oo. Singing lessons.... Gotta do that too.

- Career movement: Gotta get my name out there! (Un)paid internships, blog entries, freelancing for magazines/newspapers/online publications is a great way to start...Now to find the publications that will grant the opportunity to an(in)experienced... Hmm. Oh (next point)!!

- Networking: It is essential to my growth as a journalist -- being semi-antisocial doesnt really work. Eee. Keys to success in this area: suck it up, smile & say hi. Establish a portfolio/ready source of work to support myself as a writer. A simple business card can go a long way too....Establish & maintain contacts. That works.

- Lose the extra 12-15 pounds: returning from JA meant returning to overly processed foods... While I stay away from sodas & fast foods, there are still too many preservatives in the food I consume.... *Healthy ways to achieve this goal: going Vegan? Make my food?
----> I'm already doing Socacize classes (intense!) to tone.
----> Joined an affordable gym, decked out with "free" personal trainers, a great range of hours, 2 pools & an indoor track. Now all I have to do is go.
----> Exercising regularily will help me achieve the goal of modelling for Caribana (yes, I'm doin it up for 2010!)... I'll definitely post those photos =D.

- Debt-Free Me: debt's not cute. Acquiring a full-time position, accounting for every penny I spend will help tremendously AND saving from each pay cheque will do the trick.

C'est What?: I will (re-)learn French & be functionally bilingual by Dec 31, 2010. Armed with my *new* French-English dictionary, I'm currently searching for an affordable class before entering a 5-week French immersion program later this year...

Soo... I'm off to a great start. And things can only get better - I'm the ONLY thing standing in the way. *cheesing real hard right now,lol*. Yay. Gotta get ready to Socacize .

Bye bye!

PS: This blog is under continued construction until I find/create a layout that feels... just right.


why Haiti?

I discovered Haiti's massive earthquake while running on a 7.0 incline @ 5.0 speed on the treadmill. I almost broke my ankle as the news sank in: another burden for the Haitian population to bear. Suddenly, shedding 20 pounds to fit into a bikini bottom for carnival just wasnt that important anymore.... My initial thoughts were: why Haiti? I just couldn't understand it, nor could I bear to imagine the pain of this resilient population pummelled with centuries of tragedy, occupation, slavery, societal conflict, disasters and dictators.

As I continued to watch CNN *UGH* (couldn't change stations) the realization that this is another opportunity for foreign nations to enter Haiti while she was yet more vulnerable crept into my mind, chilling my soul. Some of things that upset me about this catastrophe included the portrayals of Haiti on television, the language used to describe the impoverished-due-to-exploitation country.

Who can sit in front of the television watching the "live coverage" of the deceased? WHY WOULD WE WANT TO SEE THE DEAD?? We understand that thousands have lost their lives. We understand this. Grotesque images of crushed babies and the frail elderly mauled by pounds of cement are not the images we need to see. Why is the media focusing on the desolation? Is it not enough that the little infrastructure Haiti had has been desecrated? Isnt it enough to know that thousands have lost their live on one side of Hispaniola, while the Domincan Republic remains virtually intact?? The deceased that make make up the thousands are all individuals, brothers, mothers, daughters, friends, husbands, lovers, with names, (his)stories & dignity. I refuse to watch as the media vultures swoop in to gain higher ratings than sister networks - its disgusting.

I decided to put some of my thoughts out there for fb as follows: soo.. Haiti's BEEN strugglin with natural disasters and the ongoing neocolonial American occupation from time.. one more natural disaster & suddenly you care ?? Seriously people? Consistency works. Try it.
-- An individual who understood my point, articulated that its better for people to start somewhere. While I agree wholeheartedly, I'd like to state that the same individuals who have changed their statuses to "praying for Haiti" or "send money via X for Haiti" don't fool me. In two weeks, they'll move on to whatever else is going on. While its touching to see the outpour of support (better something than nothing) I question the motives behind the support. Haiti has ALWAYS needed our support & our prayers.

I've seen what should be the pride of the Caribbean being treated as the pariah of Caribbean due to its religion, its poverty. Everyone focuses on the "voodoo", the hardships faced, the poverty. No one is willing to help unless a hurricane blows through, unless things dramatically worsen. Why? Haiti paved the way for other Caribbean islands at a time when there were NO INDEPENDENT Caribbean nations to speak of. While most African nations regained their independence in the 1960s onwards, Haiti had been independent over 150 years. Food for thought. They fought off their French "masters" successfully, but later fell to the colonial mindset of the house slave vs. the field hand. As with other Caribbean nations, Haiti dealt with struggles with pride of African vs. European heritage, attempts to regain their hold on a cash crop within the Atlantic trade despite boycotts from other nations deeming them "savage"; Haiti's as a sovereign nation has been a difficult one from the beginning. And still they rise: despite everything.

- I pray when the infrastructure improves, that the occupation will stop.
- I pray the interference aka "interventionist" tactics will cease & desist - Haiti is capable of ruling itself without the "aid" of the US.
- I pray to hear from V.F. & family.
- I pray that those who care now, will care later when Haiti still needs support.

My sincerest prayers go out to Hatians now, as they do everyday.


Happy 2010! Very late, yes, but im wishing it all the same.. Its day fourteen of the new year... have you kept up with your resolutions? Here's some food for thought on the idea of a resolution: while its nice to say you'd like to accomplish X, you need to plan it out to the last detail. Not to the point where if you miss a checkpoint you have a complete meltdown, but for room to grow as a person while accomplishing your REALISTIC goal.Soo... December 31, 2009, you wrote down EVERYTHING you're going to accomplish for 2010. Great. Did you make a timeline? How will you execute this plan? Do you have a support system in place? What have you done up to this point to facilitate this goal? Remember it takes 21 days to create a habit, 21 days to break one. If you havent been going to the gym & all of a sudden try to run 2k on a treadmill, it wont work. We need to walk before we can run.. That being said, i've made a BUNCH of resolutions (meaning goals to accomplish &/or habits to break for 2010) but I started earlier on.. In November to be precise. And the first week of 2010 has been a success! Things can only improve as I continue to build those habits & work on booting the useless ones.

If you've made a resolution but have given up on it since January 4th, dont wait until December 31, 2010 to set a new plan in action. Start NOW. The hardest part of any journey is taking the first step. The only thing in the way of yourself is YOU. I've experienced this first hand & it persists in the lives of many.

"fb status 12/30/09: rather than hold on to a broken dream, I'll just hold on to love {NOW}>> forget 2010"-- the advent of 2009 spurred many facebook statuses to read "2009 is my year to shine", "2k9 is mine" & etc. What happenned to 2008? What will make '09 different if you continue in the same path as you were before midnight??

Be thankful for each day that you have, because at the end of the day what is 2010, but the start of another day, another opportunity to make a meaningful change in your life? Don't wait until tomorrow, start today and work towards checking off your accomplishments on December 31, 2010 instead of relisting the same ones for 2011.

Happy 2010!

just a thought

*from Jan 12, 2010*

Mmmm... That smells so goood! If only I could get just.. one... fry. Mind you, I'm jus comin outta the gym prep.. All the sweat an pain in exchange for a few fries?? Temptation at its best. Looking up to find the source of the greasy scent, I see a young man, with not so fabulous skin chomping down on small handfuls of fried potato at a time. Not so appetizing anymore. And then he gets up- its his stop. Lo & behold the oxymoron of the day: a small gym bag. Hmmmmmmm. Hands slippery with grease and possibly ketchup, he swings the blue duffel around to his left hip and steps off the bus. Wendy's lingers, but my appetite is long gone.